Category Archives: I – PERSONAL / Life
I met Lucky but I didn’t get lucky – Delhi’s Thak Thak Gang’s smooth criminals
Oye Lucky Lucky Oye that Abhay Deol starer film was one of my all-time favourite films. Not anymore for I met a Lucky in my real life. It happened in broad day light at the Hauz Khas – IIT gate traffic signal, opposite to Essex Farm, amidst a heavy Monday evening traffic and right under the nose […]
Night in and outside my bedroom
It’s 3 am. The sky outside is thundering and pouring. I can’t sleep. I find the night so much more interesting than day, that I don’t feel like sleeping over it. Right now, all is quiet. Am alone in my room, on my bed. This space is so secure, so comfortable, so completely mine. No intruders, […]
Matter
23rd July 2012 I would never be able to explain it to anybody, including myself, how much it helps, writing a blog post at the most vulnerable times of my life. The only way I can ever express myself is by typing my heart out right here, away from every human eyes. So what happened […]
That emotional intimacy issue…
Update dt 3-Jun-2012 – This is a rant. — Its about 1.30 am, in exactly 12.5 hours I am required to present my Business Plan at our 10000 women program, in front of a special panel. My B-plan is not even 40% complete. And yet I am on this blog. I am here because I […]
The heart is not where the dick is
The heart is so not where my dick is. If I were a man, I would have said that about my current situation. So change the ‘vital instrument’ to something more befitting my gender, but you get my point right? I don’t know what else to call this but love and I just feel so […]
Alone and alive (Final Chapter of Book of Romance-Part 1)
This blog is back in action with its original content, feelings and emotions from the bottom of my heart, bare truth for the world to read. I spent all of 2010 and 2011 so far worrying over the fact that everybody who knew me in real life, all the friends, the family members, colleagues, read […]
Thus Spake Me | XLX
Curiosity compels me to repeat certain actions adhering to the matters of heart over & over again, in spite of a closet full cats killed by, you guessed it, curiosity.
Boats on the water, not steps on the ladder
The greatest tragedy of my life is that my parents and my nearest and dearest family don’t understand what do I do in life, who am I. Since they don’t know, from there it follows, they are not proud of me, not particularly ashamed but not proud to the extent that when it comes to […]
Hello again, life
You know what they say about professionalism, that you cannot be personal. The last few months, in fact the whole year I barely blogged, whatever I did write, like updates on my professional life, my new entrepreneurial venture, some of my interviews that got published on other blogs, none of these were really stuff that […]
Launch of Samyukta Media: My small step in a big world
Update: Before you read this, may I request you to Like the newly launched Samyukta Media page on Facebook — So it has been about 3 months that I have quit and an update is much needed on how has life been without a job. Life has been good, more importantly, it has been exactly the way I […]
Tag this one as dark, depress, scream
“A 100 years from now, who are you to be, reading me with curiosity?” ~ Rabindra Nath Tagore If I could paint I would make a painting. Four walls and me, leaning on a corner, screaming. Scream till I lose my voice. Just scream. On the final day, when all of this will be over, […]
Hope is the fool’s greatest dream, but is there another way?
The first part of this post is inspired by Child King’s Return from Exile. The second part is a follow up to my previous post ‘This is what Hope does.’ Part 1 The news has reached the purple sea, child king has picked up the brush and is about make a new painting. Kaefen, the […]
This is what hope does
Year 2004 I had once fallen in love with a man who I never met. I was in my early 20s, Munish had just started distancing himself from me for reasons completely unknown to me. He behaved rudely with me in public, said things to hurt me often. He was a different person altogether. I […]
Love is not your bailout
You will know when you will meet your soul mate, you’ll just know. There’s no way you’ll be wondering, “Is this my soul mate?” A soul mate is a part of you which you didn’t even know exist, which was lost but you didn’t realize until you found it. Like sometimes while moving your furniture […]
The chase: The First date
Update: 17th May 2010 – I had earlier kept this post in private mode making it public today, because enough time has passed and that guy didn’t ask me for a second date and now I don’t think I am going to see him again. This is a follow up to my previous post ‘The […]
Another Bizarre dream: Anybody to interpret?
My dreams are getting Bizarre by the day. I dream every night, never have a sound sleep and usually wake up with a strange feeling. Sometimes I can remember them, sometimes I don’t, if they were too strong and bizarre I write them down. This was last night’s dream. To set the context: I Went […]
Information Overload
Frequency of post on this blog has gone down so miserably because too many people are now reading it. It has always remained a personal blog where I used to write all my deepest feelings. But not any more. Now, recently I went out on a date. Like a proper date. The most obvious thing […]
The search, the chase and the soulmate
I don’t know if its a coincidence or not but I happen to write whenever it pours unexpectedly and beautifully in the National Capital. And these writings always come in mind while I am coming home from work. In 2005, I used to work in Nehru Place, I thought of this post while sitting in […]
Happy New Year, that dream is still there
And just like that the year 2009 went by. Exactly the same way went ’07 and ’08 with the blink of an eye, leaving me behind with many exciting moments, many reasons to smile, many moments of pride and success, and some same old blank sheets, and that same old yet to realize dream. TED […]
In anticipation of life to come, mourning a life gone.
Jango at his daily vigil This morning we lost our dog Jango. He was 11 and a half years old. He had never shown signs of old age until last Sunday when he refused to eat his meals. This was the first time ever that he said no to any thing that was edible. He […]
Chugging along
The train is now chugging through the hills, going in and out of tunnels every now and then. Manoshi is tapping her foot to the rhythm of a certain song playing on her MP3 player and she is reading a book. There’s no one else in the compartment. As the train entered a tunnel again, […]
A star was born
[Scene - I, 22nd Jan 1977, Jalpaiguri a small town in north West Bengal] She spent all of last night sobbing in his arms. “The doctor said 21st is the date but I never had a labour pain. And now the baby has even stopped moving. Some thing must be wrong with the baby, I […]
Life in Bangalore: On staying alone in my proud house
25th October 08 Over the past few weeks I have been going through, what I understand it to be, the most depressing phase of my life. I never knew what exactly depression means and how it gives you a fuckall feeling all through the day. I don’t feel like going out of the walls I […]
Thanks
Furobiker Abhishek, Lakshmi, Kalyan, Arnold, Aneesha, Seema, PP, Eddie, Rashmi, Snigdha and Anantha – Thanks to each one of you for still being around. I bestow upon you the ‘Most loyal reader‘ awards. And from this day on this blog is going to start a new chapter in its life with 11 of its most […]
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